January 16

What I Want

I am a glutton

Filled with cold hearted greed,

For the things I lust after;

For the things that I need.

Would you spare me your engine?

Your most crucial part?

To warm up my insides,

I desire a heart.

On top of that, please,

Include just for me:

The warmth of another,

To answer my plea.

And when I grow weary,

From this world’s pain,

Would you spare me a shoulder?

Your loss is my gain.

Though shoulders grow tired,

As does my will.

Share me your embrace,

To stop this lonely chill.

And in your arms,

Perhaps I would find,

Whatever we call safety;

The illusion of the mind.

The most important of all,

And definitely most rare,

Is to split the lost treasure;

Your love, if you dare.

Written by Lucas, on behalf of team Cayleigh, Ziyana, Ryan, Masooma, Rajneet

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January 16

Arkham Asylum

I did not belong here. That was my first thought as I stared at the sign labelled psych ward with an arrow seemingly pointed directly where I stood against the wall. A big red arrow on top of my head as if to notify the world that I was irrational and psychotic; a warning sign of danger up ahead. “Beware of rabid animal” might as well be tattooed on my forehead. This thought was solidified as I saw nurses running past me towards a room, where sounds of chaos and madness seemed to originate.
“Sedate him!” screamed a women from inside of the room.
“I cannot restrain him!” came from another, with a very evident expression of struggle in her exasperated tone.
As the complication came to a close and silence was replaced, a gurney with an unconscious teen strapped tightly to the bed came rolling down the hall, led by a burly man with large arms wearing a security uniform. The nurses that I had seen previously quickly followed, one with a scrape along the side of her face and the other with a line of blood trailing down her arm, the origin of the wound hidden by the sleeves of her scrubs; exhaustion flooded their faces.
Poor boy had no idea what he would wake up to, but believe me, he will wish he never woke up at all. I had been in this hell hole of a place for six months and somehow people seem to be misled into believing that my mind is classified as “psychotic” while I believe it is just pure generosity that looms in my being. Those people got what they deserved….they had it coming and it was me who delivered their punishment in the rightful form. They deserved to feel the pain of every slice of their skin and to hear every appendage fall to the floor after being unfastened from their bodies. I did mankind a favour really and this is their way of expressing their appreciation for my efforts?
I had relished in my dose of entertainment for the day so I began to walk back to my room as these thoughts still lingered in my mind; as the memories still flashed before my eyes. A smile crept up on my face as the smell of blood lingered in my nostrils and the sound of screaming flooded my ears. I took my time, I was in no rush and you would have thought they would have appreciated my clean incisions…but no. They had no respect for me while I was being so generous as to provide them with the attention and comfort that they deserved. The judge specifically said I had “no respect for mankind” but my actions beg to differ.
The doctors have labelled me as a psychopath but really if you look at it from my perspective I had committed no crime other than performing the act of kindness. I had done a task for humanity, and they say what I did was selfish and sinful; so they put me here. A mental hospital for the mentally insane. THEY are all insane for thinking that this place will change my future career in vigilantism. I will not change my role of serving justice to those who deserve it.
I see myself as a superhero; an honorary member of the justice league, protecting mankind from scum is my duty. I walked into my room and saw my roommate lying asleep so peacefully on his bed, it gave me a new idea…contemplating, questioning what my next move would be. I would prove to everyone that my rightful place was out there, not in here. The streets needed me, protecting my fellow humans. I did not belong here.

 

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January 16

Ghost

 

 


 

I want to take you on a journey in which you will feel yourself drown; you will lose yourself, I promise you. Close your eyes slowly, and let your mind be peaceful.

This is a story of a city – an abandoned one where the shattered glass pollutes the streets. Silence drifts through the city, it aids death strangle hope. Where decay welcomes you into its arms, holding you tighter than your love.

There is loneliness in the sky, broken pieces of clouds cover the sky like splattered paint on a black canvas. It is a dark night, the kind of night when the unspeakable happens. If you go on a walk this night, goose bumps will be your best friend, the invisible will follow you, and your skin will tingle. You will want to melt into the darkness.

If you crave for a thrill – this is your night, let your eager character lead you out. The skyscrapers cry as you walk in the deserted streets, freezing air seeps in your olive skin. Something creeps down your neck making you twitch with every step you take. Delicate chain around your neck burns, your shoes step on the moist yet concrete ground. Street lights flicker as you go down deep into devastation.

For a moment you will stop to admire the sky. The sky is different now, clouds have the throne, they’ve ordered rain to soak the vacant streets. It starts light, but gradually, it increases. The droplets fall on your amber hair, slowly soaking your whole body. They roll down your face like melting ice, turning your cheeks rosy. Your body shivers from the cold, you look around trying to find shelter. You finally find an open door which looks like an opened decaying mouth. Your mind stops you, but your body carries you inside.

You try to breathe, but the air warm and thick, oozes inside your nose into the lungs. Ageing concrete surrounds you, takes you into another realm. Eyes widen as you walk in further, a long ago polished floor shows encroaching mud and leaf detritus. A staircase stands alone in the murkiness, you slowly walk towards it. Without thinking you step on the softwood leading up the staircase, unsure of what it might bring. Your hand on your heart, eyes closed, you let the senses guide you.

After hours of climbing up the never-ending stairs, you finally find yourself in front a moldering door. Your hand finds its way on the rusty doorknob trying to open it. As it opens with a jerk, a wild gust of wind catches you off guard hitting so hard, you stumble, but manage to hold yourself up. Sky looks clearer than before, rain gone, but the gloom persists.

Now, you are on the rooftop walking towards the ledge of the building. Eye-balling the surroundings, you feel like you’re trapped in a jungle of steel and glass growing out of a concrete metropolis. On the ledge, you gracefully balance yourself like a ballerina, letting the adrenaline take over, just so you can feel something. Studying the sky, your throat parched, your dead brown eyes search for the moon. Digging in your pocket, you take out a stale cigarette and a lighter. It feels hot when the smoke finds its way into your lungs, then gradually the nicotine rush envelopes you. Hazy pleasant feeling wraps you in its arms, making you sway on the edge. Without thinking you flick the cigarette away, and watch as it falls down. Your arm crosses to touch the other arm; you finally feel something.
You open your mouth to scream, “I’m scared! Help me!!” Silence answers your call.

Bones start to become feeble as your mind races back to where you came from. Vehement emotions charge towards you as your heart tries to break free of the chains. Hands to the sides, you gaze ahead at the forsaken road. Chills dart down your spine, buildings around you abandoned long ago by shattered dreams and promises. Eyes shut, your mind replays what you’ve been missing. Eyes dry, hungry for emotions, but it’s okay.

Ghosts don’t cry.

January 16

To This Day~ Shane Koyczan

Bullies are the kings that rule kingdoms

but drown us puppets in the tears shed

whirling

down deep in the dooms of despair

taking a breathe afraid to protect

holding in the quarrel of hurt

cutting at the dark wimps of deadness

eating our hearts

ambition isn’t our goal

living is a choice we decide to end

all for one who trails along our tail end

ugly, stupid, kill your self

its never ending

shadow masking decisions

the live heartbeat is accountable of feeling grazed and broken

we often follow our monsters into our closest

to suck the purity and replace it with scarcity

in fear of being kept hostage

for a life time

to our masters

wanting to escape with the pills kept at hand

by our bedside

convinced this was the only way out

too late

it’s the end

January 16

All Grown Up

When we were little, we always to wanted to be big; we always wanted to grow up. But now that we’ve gotten big and now that we’ve grown up, we find ourselves wishing we were little again.

Because there’s no one to tuck us in before bed. No one to tell us night-time stories and fill our heads with pretty things before we fall asleep.  No one to scare away the monsters, and we’ve got plenty of monsters that need scaring.

No one to bandage our scraped knees and our cut thumbs. No one to kiss away our fevers. No one to wipe our tear-stained faces. And we’ve cried. A lot. Because growing up means less ignorance and more knowing. Knowing that the world is actually a pretty crappy place.

And we’ve got no one to tell us otherwise anymore. No one to tell us that the things we see on the news are real. Bombings, houses fires, forest fires, ship wrecks, car wrecks. Abused women, abused men. abused children, abused animals and the people that like to do the abusing. Headlines flashing, people starving, ice caps melting.

And all of it is real. And what hurts most is that we can’t do a damn thing about it. When we were little, we thought growing up meant being powerful. On the contrary; growing up means realizing how little power we actually have.

Growing up. Wonderful, isn’t it?

And all you have to do is trade your story books for text books and your text books for cheque books. Trade your stickers for your learner’s permit and your learner’s permit for your driver’s licence and your driver’s licence for a parking ticket. Trade Saturday morning cartoons for R-rated movies and bubble wands for cigarettes.

Because growing up means giving up the sweet things. Maybe that’s why we are all so bitter. Like stale coffee. But we drink it anyways. Because we are just so tired. Because we went to bed late las night, even though we knew we had to get up early for school and work the next morning. Because once you’ve grown up,  you don’t get to sleep in anymore.

So many perks, right? So wonderful, right?

Wrong.

So here is a message for all the kiddies out there: Please don’t grow up. 


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